This I recall to my mind, therefore have I hope. It is of the Lord’s mercies that we are not consumed, because his compassions fail not. They are new every moring: great is thy faithfulness. The Lord is my portion saith my soul: therefore will I hope in him. The Lord is good unto them that wait for Him, to the soul that seeketh him. It is good that a man should both hope and quietly wait for the salvation of the LORD. Lamentations 3: 21-26

Thursday, June 28, 2007

When I Grow Up...

I have been looking at what people I am drawn to, inspired by. I see those people with gentle manners and kind, quiet voices as people I want to sit with and absorb their peace. I hear people with strong, noble convictions and powerful faiths that they are willing to share—I want to draw strength from them. People who can say positive words make me want to be like them. People who have humor in their veins make me laugh and bring sunshine to my heart.

The thing I think I see in common with all these people is that they never try to show me where I am wrong. (I know, well enough, I am wrong too often.) They are too busy showing me how they live and don’t even need to explain why—they are living it. People who are excited about their own lives are infectious. If they write, it is full of them and their overflow—they are too busy ”being” to worry about trying to make me feel bad about me and my choices.

Who have I been steering clear of these days? Negative people. People who want to burden, belittle, tear down. I think maybe they are insecure and they feel built up if others are wrong. Rigid people, who are set in ruts and not open-minded, are people I don’t want to be around. They will never be open to their humanity and the possibility that they are wrong. At the same time, I have been trying to avoid people who lack moral compasses. They confuse me—not that I want to follow their off kilter course, but in trying to offer compassion and friendship to them, my values have taken a few hits. People like this are never wrong in their mind either—but then to them, there is little that is really wrong.

Why am I stewing on this topic?

I want to become someone who impacts others just by my being me. I want to be kind, I want to be compassionate, quiet, gentle, enthusiastic and full of joy. I want to be busy without busy owning me. I want to be able to stop and set all else aside if I am needed. I want to be Mary AND Martha, sitting at His feet and feeding His friends.

As it stands…I have a long way to go.

4 comments:

Karen said...

I think that you ARE kind, compassionate, enthusiastic and full of joy. Your blog is such a pleasant and inspirational place to visit!

I have been overwhelmed with books to review for publishers to do much else in my spare time...except post the free books they sent me to giveaway:)

Liza's Eyeview said...

well, my friend..even though we have not met in person...you inspire me.

check out my post today and you'll meet another "authentic and transparent" Christian :)

Bss said...

I love your blog! Just like the other commentor said, you inspire me! God bless you, and thank you for sharing your life with us.

Coach J said...

I want to be that way, too. Can we be Mary AND Martha?? I say "The joy of the Lord is my strength." but does my life show that? The head coach of the varsity team is one such person who motivates, and is a happy person. I love being around him, and his family! I take comfort in the fact that God opens our eyes to things He wants to change in our lives, because He knows we will let Him change us. And He will complete what He starts! Long way to go, or not, WE WILL GET THERE!